What is Me and What is not at all me?

When was the last time you wrote something down with your hand?
No texting or typing or speaking into a camera but actually picking up a writing utensil and writing words on paper..

What do you think about your handwriting? What is your favorite thing to write with? 
There are so many subtitles in writing by hand. Writing your thoughts, your feelings, whatever pops into your mind. Write 4 pages or 2 short hand statements. There is so much depth there. 

I also like writing because it forces the brain to slow down a bit. I have to articulate and choose words wisely, so the brain becomes intentional. Its not just screaming random things at me constantly when I write. Its my reprieve. 

My mind is incredibly active. I think a lot. Like a lot. I don’t know what the inside of other people’s brain sounds like, but mine is constantly on the move. 

Thinking. Planning. Preparing. Freaking out about something that may or may not happen. Overanalyzing conversations. Singing Moana songs on repeat. Praying. Observing my surroundings. Deciding what I like and don’t like. Distract yo' self. Justification of any and all distractions. Explanation. Ugh I don’t feel like it. I think I’m hungry.  Creating complete and incredibly detailed random scenarios, that are based in absolutely zero fact. I am starvinngnggg. What is that person thinking? Ooh, I lover her dress. OMG A DOGGG!!!!!


Obviously, meditation is not easy for me. (Insert wide eyed emoji here.) Stillness practice, I am getting better at, but meditation is way hard. 
It's a curious juxtaposition because I create with my mind. It is one of my greatest assets.

The writing, the expression, the poetry, it’s all language, it comes from the mind. 
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And at the exact same time it is my biggest obstacle. It’s so convincing. It’s quick and clever. But it's definitely a scaredy-pants. 

I also receive intuitive wisdom and understanding in words, in language, in the mind. 

So, which part of it is me and which part of it is not at all me? 


(I’m not setting you up to then give you the answer.)
I don’t know the answer. I am still trying to figure it out. 


But I have a pretty big hunch that the answer is in the body. 

Cheering for us!
C
What was the last thing you wrote on paper? What is your favorite writing utensil? Seriously. I want to know. Mine is a side click, .7mm mechanical pencil. Currently, its green and gorgeous.