The countdown to departure is T-3 days.
Feelings are getting felt over here, my friend.
So many people are reaching out or asking me in person how I am feeling about leaving.
And obviously I am THRILLED beyond anything I can possibly explain, but there are still fears, worries and anxiety making sure they are known, as well.
I've been little nonchalant about the fact that I am going to the other side of the world for 6 months.
I think I owe it to myself to get a little chalant, amiright?! (Yes- I know chalant isn't actually a word.)
But the most beautiful thing about everything that I am feeling is that I really only have one option.
And that is RADICAL TRUST.
Radical trust in God and radical trust in myself.
Because without radical trust, it just doesn't make sense. "What are you going to do while you're there? What are you going to do about money? Do you have any friends there? What if something bad happens? On and on and on...."
People like to take their fears about things and put them on you, especially when you're about to do something BIG.
The same is true about taking a short trip! Or buying a house! Or having a baby! Or going back to college! Or whatever else! It doesn't matter.
As soon as you stand up and say, "I want something different" people are gonna throw all kinds of craziness your way.
And it's not their fault, its just fear. We live in a paradigm of fear right now. Look around, watch the news or get on FB for 2 seconds. Fear is EV.ER.Y.WHERE.
So, I'm learning that I don't necessarily want to be rubber, (I'm rubber, you're glue, whatever you say bounces off me and sticks to you.) but I just want to live my life with such radical trust that it becomes empowering for other people to chase their wildest dreams.
And when more and more people start standing up and chasing dreams and staring fear in the face and acting anyway, fear begins to lose it's foothold. The matrix of fear begins to dismantle.
Because the biggest killer of dreams is fear.
And the antidote to fear, is trust.
So, excuse me while I cry on my momma's shoulder, give my niece and nephew the biggest squeezes ever, and say goodbye to everything that makes me feel safe.
You can find me jumping off the freaking cliff man.
Free-falling with peace in my heart and radical trust in the 2 things in this world that matter.
The eternal source of Love and Goodness, and of course, myself.