I am all UP in my feelings today.
And have been for a few days, actually.
I posted a video on my insta today about how I am embarrassed about my (surprising) emotional reaction to the fact that I colored my hair back to brown.
(Yes, I chose to color it back to brown and yes, I am in choice in feeling feelings about it, as well. We create our reality, ya know!)
It's funny because the change of my hair color and my response to it, is merely a reflection of the greater change in my life that I am gearing up for.
But even in knowing that, I am still feeling so strongly about the stupid hair!
Like questioning my identity feelings. Wondering if I can have the same impact if I look "normal" feelings. Feelings of absolute ridiculousness, honestly.
But I am grateful for everything it is stirring up in me. Because it has been a beautiful practice of observing my mind and the stories I tell myself when I don't feel my best.
It's a perfect way for me to practice using my thoughts and my speech to create my reality. (Do I send this text to my mom saying, "I hate my hair!" or do I look in the mirror and say, "I am more than what is on the outside".)
Believe me, I completely understand how crazy it is that all of this comes from the change of hair color. But everything in your life is just a reflection of something greater.
So, you can brush it off and say it's stupid. Or you can sit with the feelings of fear, the insecurities and everything it brings up and love the shit out of that side of you, too.
Because I KNOW that I am so much more than the color of my hair. But I am still fully valid in feeling whatever I feel, whenever I feel it, and for whatever reason the feelings are there.
And you are, too.
So feel your feels, man. Peer courageously into the depths of your heart and love the shit out of everything you find.