A Man Named James...

I met a gentleman named James today. 

(I love using the term gentlemen for dudes that are older and cooler than me. Try it, they love it.)

He had white hair down to the middle of his back, a perfectly manicured, matching beard and the coolest Harry Potter glasses. 

He had really cool and calm energy, and I could tell he was a young, old soul. Or an old, young soul. I couldn't quite tell which. 

Anyways, he is a writer by trade, and I shared a bit about my own writing journey and how I am currently trying to become a professional writer in some way. 

I told him about my book, my blog and these emails and he immediately asked for my blog address. 

I instantly started sweating and felt the blood rush to my face. 

I was stumbling over my words about how my website isn't published yet because its not finished and blah, blah, blah.. and suddenly the quiet voice of my true self whispered, it's not published yet darling, because you're scared. 

(Insert wide eyed emoji here.) 

I ask people to read my stuff at the time. Every day in fact! Why did this random guy illicit such an intense response!?

So, in the middle of my sentence, I stopped myself and said, "You know what, James. Since you asked and you're curious enough to write down my blog address, I am going to get it published within 2 days."

And so I did. 

Why am I telling you this?

Well, first 'cause I want you to check out my shiny, new website. Obvi. www.thedefiantdreamer.com (Blog posts, Journaling projects other goodies are on there!)

And second, because this experience gave me such a clear understanding of how I get in my own way, just because of a little fear.

Fear of being judged. Fear of being rejected. Fear of not helping people. Just stupid fear. 

I learned this weekend from a brilliant podcast that any decision, (or lack thereof) made in fear, has a karmic retribution that will have to be paid at some point.

(And I am fo' sho not trying to rack up any more karmic debt, am I right?!)

So, I am going to face my fears head on.

I am trying to have enough awareness that when I experience the sensation of fear, or fear masked as any other negative emotion, I just go towards it and do the opposite of what the fear is telling me. 

It's terrifying.

You should try it. 

'Cause fear is a little bitch. 

Be brave. 

Usually something magical is waiting for you on the other side of the fear. You just have to trust yourself and trust God to get you there. 

You can do it. 
I'm cheering for you. 
C

P.S. My first ever webinar is going to be on my 33rd birthday!
Save the Date: Sunday, July 29th. Time: tbd. 

I'm gonna talk about my journey and give you some action steps and tangible things you can do to start overcoming anything that is holding you back so you can start creating the life of your dreams! YAY! 

People on my email list get in for free, so enter your email here to get the link!